Meet Me At The Top, We'll Jump In Neverland

I haven't had a full-on, daydream-at-night-to-induce-sleep, watch-everything-they've-ever-done, have-imaginary-conversations-with celebrity crush in a while. It's why it took so long for me to come up with a laminated list. Why I'm still having reservations about who I put on that, and stressing because my latest boo's aren't on it. I just haven't been satisfied with the current crop of celebrities. Either they're too old (I'm looking at you, Mr Clooney. But if you want to persuade me over a glass of red wine, I'd be happy to let you try), too young (Kid from Percy Jackson, Nick Jonas, and Justin Bieber turn 18 already!), too dirty (eh ehm Robert Pattinson... take a shower), too pretty (Zefron, le sigh), or married (Zac Hanson, Ryan Reynolds, etc... because apparently a wedding ring takes away all chances... it doesn't matter that they're a celebrity, we will still meet and things will be lovely... but married? It'll never happen... and I refuse to be a dirty homewrecking mistress). I like my celebrity crushes to be "real," as in, I could actually have a shot if I were to ever meet them. (Yes, I'm delusional, it's okay. If you haven't figured that out, go back and re-read my "Special Ed" series. Seriously). I envision us meeting, some witty banter exchanged, and then falling in love. (I used to write fan fiction... I still do, except I just live it out in my head now). 

Anyway. 

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I was flipping through my 300+ DVD's the other night, unable to decide what to watch, when I saw Prime. I think this was when I bought DVDs just to buy them, to collect them, you know, before I had $1000 worth of bills each month... I saw Bryan Greenberg was in it (who I loved in "One Tree Hill"... which I had to at one point love because they shot it at my college and employed half the film school population of UNCW... even yours truly as a front row concertgoer in Season 3), and even though I hate Uma Thurman, decided to buy it. OMGBryanGreenbergSEXINESS. He spends like half the movie without a shirt on, or just looking fine. 

Excuse me for a moment.

Right. So I remembered that, and decided to watch this movie again. OMGBryanGreenbergSEXINESS!!! I'd forgotten my love for him, and all his Jewish glory. (I recognize that if his family is really strict about that, we could never date since I, an Episcopalian, am not Jewish. But I have a Christian white girl Jew fro and the name Rebecca, and my Grandfather used to look Jewish when he was younger, so maybe I can just trick them?). 

I have since proceeded to watch Nobel Son (interesting... kinda weird, but a good cast... dunno), Love and Debate (I gave it ONE star on Netflix... ONE. And only because Bryan was in it as a curly shaggy haired musician, which we all know is my kryptonite), certain episodes of "One Tree Hill"... (Bryan I love you, but even you can't make me stomach too much of that show), and all 19 episodes of "October Road," that short-lived ABC show he headlined. I couldn't rewatch Bride Wars for you, though. It gives me a spasm thinking about it. And I think I sold The Perfect Score in a moment of extreme brokeness/guilt for owning too many movies. I've put "Unscripted" in my Amazon cart, waiting for my paycheck to go through (I put it in the bank SATURDAY. IT IS TUESDAY AND I CANNOT ACCESS IT!) so I can collect that as well. And I might have downloaded the trailer for The Good Guy, which is like a giant smashing of teen TV show stars... Rory Gilmore, Jason Street, and Jake Jagielski/Nick Garrett. Which is also Alexis's SECOND movie with a costar from "Friday Night Lights" that relates quite well with my life-as-of-now (at least, that's what I've gathered from the trailers, as I've not seen either). 

WHOA. What's really weird... As I'm writing this, I get a tweeted-text-message... from @bryangreenberg. It says "I'm a mess". COINCIDENCE??? It's like he's talking to me, and especially more so because it comes up on my bb as being from bryangreenberg. LIKE IT WAS A PERSONAL TEXT MESSAGE AND NOT A GENERIC TWEET.

...I think I might have a problem.

PS, If I am ever to meet him, I'm taking this down in a nanosecond and if you mention it I will DENY. DENY. DENY. 

That is all.

photos from bryangreenberg.com, bryan-greenberg.com, and me